For your lack of control,

standing under my cloud that sheltered my ineptitude,
i lost sight of the skies beyond.
losing the comfort of my protective shadow has only let the suns rays sink in deeper,
deeper into the flesh that's already chapped from winds in unexpected directions.
and through the weather's harsh shifts and changes,
i watched my cloud slowly disperse,
only to reconnect as soon as the waters evaporated.
as the stars fell from above my dilating cloud,
i was showered with your eye's rain.
i thought i could swim through it,
i thought i could bear your acres of contemplations,
yet i'm still here,
but with a new umbrella.
your dilemmas patched the holes in my obscurity.
i'm sinking in your puddle.