For goodbye,

i can forget most of the time.
i can mute the sound of trumpets,
i can erase the words that once were spoken.
but sometimes, i can't.
i feel the thick autumn air get caught in my throat in the summer heat,
i taste the metallic kiss,
and i choke.
choke up on the months that are light years away,
yet slip through my fingers as if reliving them.
i've tried to hold on to these moments from a short lived happiness,
but my time has expired.
i reflect on days gone, and wonder where they have flown away to.
but now i understand that they've only tucked away deep inside me.
i can't shut out the rest of the world,
awaiting the chance to reconnect with my past.
i have to soar away,
spreading my wings with the strength i know i have packed inside my apprehensive body.
i can't forget,
but i can leave this mess in the past,
leave it locked away so tight that i can not relive,
but i can revisit.
i can't forget you,
but i can fly away.